I Wonder

I Wonder - Gowe

Her mind was confused with a plus at the tip of the tube

在医生针管下的她大脑乱做一团

Sick as she threw up with a cup take a sip of abuse

像是生了病一样抱着杯子呕吐不停 浅尝了虐待的滋味

So she gets nervous cause her man left her

她紧张极了 因为她的男友离开了她

After the sex and he jets she thought that he loved her

激情过后 她曾以为他是爱她的

You see shes 18 and shes a bit conscious

你瞧 她已经成年了 也开始留意

About her dress and the reflection of her own image

自己的衣着和自己幻想的倒影

Timid in speech shes limited given a week

她总是羞于开口讲话 一周的生活费也有限

With her tummy blowing up so that people can see

但是随着她日渐隆起的肚子 人们都知道她怀孕了

But she decides to keep it said no to abortion

但她却决定生下这个孩子 不做流产

The feet kicks in her stomach comes without a warning

肚中的那双小脚总是毫无预兆地踢她的胃

She feels the pain though cause her parents cry

她日夜承受着痛苦 也让她的父母整日以泪洗面

And the shame eats her alive when she closed her eyes

当她闭上双眼时 羞愧几乎吞噬掉了她所有的生气

Then the day comes she gives birth to a son

终于到了临产的那天 她生出了一个小男孩

Kim sung hoon soon she holds and kisses her love

很快就取名金成勋 她抱着他 亲吻着她的小宝贝

Wishing it never ended taking a mental picture

希望这情景永远不会结束 默默地将这一刻铭记

Hoping through the tears that her son would have a better future

她泪眼朦胧 希望她的儿子拥有一个更加美好的将来

I wonder if there's a smile on your face

我想知道你的脸上是否挂着微笑

Sometimes I miss you and long for your embrace

有时我想念你 渴望你的拥抱

I never could thank you enough for holding on

你的坚持让我无尽感激

Dear mama mama mama forever I'll hold you in my heart

亲爱的妈妈 妈妈 妈妈 我会永远将你铭记在我的心中

So she wonders what happened to her son next

她想知道她的儿子接下来经历了什么

Is there clothes on his back food on his plate whats the context

想知道他是否衣食无忧 生活得怎样

The recollection of the day replays in her mindset

那些曾经的回忆始终萦绕在她的脑海

And the ways she would try but just never could forget

那些她拼尽全力的尝试 她永远都不会忘记

Well he's okay and he resides in the states

好吧 他还不错 现在居住在美国

A needle in space in which rain makes it a beautiful place

一个针眼大小的地方 那里一下雨就美得如同天堂

Embraced by the culture and he's loved by all the members

被那里的文化所笼罩 拥有着大家的爱

Until he turns 18 and his world get flipped

直到他18岁的时候 整个世界对他来说都变了

He hears that his mom is not actually his and that complications

他知道了他现在的母亲只是他的养母

Prevented her from having any kids and his real mom

因为一些并发症无法生育所以收养了他 而他的亲生母亲

Is actually Korean and she had to give him up for adoption

其实是韩国人 她不得不让别人将他收养

Cause she was young and was a student

因为她还年幼 还是个学生

Lost and was confused and wrestling in the moment

那一瞬间 他的内心失落迷茫又崩溃

Am I Chinese or Korean am I destined in this union

我是中国人还是韩国人 我注定就应该生活在这个国度吗

And if I am what's the purpose I jot it in my verses

如果是这样的话 那我将这件事写进我的唱词中又有什么意义呢

So I replay it in my mind as I think about you

因此我在脑海中反复思索这件事 频频地想起你

I wonder if there's a smile on your face

我想知道你的脸上是否挂着微笑

Sometimes I miss you and long for your embrace

有时我想念你 渴望你的拥抱

I never could thank you enough for holding on

你的坚持让我无尽感激

Dear mama mama mama forever I'll hold you in my heart

亲爱的妈妈 妈妈 妈妈 我会永远将你铭记在我的心中

If I could write a letter and know that you would read it

如果我可以给你写一封信 并且知道你一定会读的话

I would tell you that I never once in my heart felt hatred

我会告诉你 我从没有恨过你

Reinstated I would play a song and dance with you

与你相认之后 我会播放一首歌曲 与你跳起一支舞

Hold your hand as I thank the lord for creating you

握着你的双手 感谢上帝创造了你

As strong as you are cause in my mind I can't fathom

你是如此坚强 因为在我心里 我无法估测

The pain and the guilt when all you heard was their gossip

当你听到人们的流言蜚语时 你的心中究竟有多悔恨 多痛苦

And still you stuck through it when they called you foolish

可是当人们都叫你傻瓜时 你仍然坚持着生下我

And with this gift that I possess your probably loved music

随着这份礼物的降临 我相信你应该也喜欢音乐

I hope you're doing well I hope some day you'll see this

我希望你能做得很好 希望有一天你能看到这首歌

I hope I mean I really hope that you know Jesus on a deeper level

我希望 我是说我真的希望你能知道耶稣在暗处

Seeking just to know him better I hope in perfect timing we can

一直保佑着我 我希望在一个完美的时机中 我们能够

See the reason clearer I hope you're smiling now

清楚地明白这一切的意义所在 我希望你此刻正在微笑

I hope I cross your mind I hope you never second guess

我希望你能牵挂着我 我希望你从未怀疑过

If what you did was right cause I'm so proud of you

你做的这一切是否正确 因为你让我如此骄傲

I love and admire you

我爱你 我敬重你

So after all these years this is my way of telling you

所以过了这么多年 我用我自己的方式来告诉你

I wonder if there's a smile on your face

我想知道你的脸上是否挂着微笑

Sometimes I miss you and long for your embrace

有时我想念你 渴望你的拥抱

I never could thank you enough for holding on

你的坚持让我无尽感激

Dear mama mama mama forever I'll hold you in my heart

亲爱的妈妈 妈妈 妈妈 我会永远将你铭记在我的心中

I wonder if there's a smile on your face

我想知道你的脸上是否挂着微笑

Sometimes I miss you and long for your embrace

有时我想念你 渴望你的拥抱

I never could thank you enough for holding on

你的坚持让我无尽感激

Dear mama mama mama forever

亲爱的妈妈 妈妈 永远的母亲