What Is Dying Daddy

Daddy what is dying is it sleep

爸爸，死亡是什么，是睡着了吗？

Is it just a dream that's very deep

是一场深沉的梦境吗？

Do we close our eyes and somehow keep

我们是否会闭上双眼，然后

On living in the stars Daddy is dying sleep

在星海中延续生命？爸爸，死亡是睡着了吗？

I pulled the blanket up my hands were shaking sleep

我拉起被角，双手颤抖，哄她入睡

I kissed her forehead said it's only rest a deeper sleep

吻过她的额头，谎称这只是休息，一场更深的安眠

Where angels sing the lullabies they keep

在那里，天使吟唱着永恒的摇篮曲

For little girls where pain is gone and breathing's deep

献给女孩们，那里没有痛苦，呼吸沉稳安详

I told her heaven-wool is soft the stars would keep

我告诉她天堂的绒羽多么柔软，星辰会

A place for her I lied I couldn't even keep

为她留一方天地，我撒了谎，我甚至无法稳住

My voice from cracking I was drowning too deep

破碎的声线，我已在悲恸中没顶

In my own tears I turned my face I couldn't keep

溺于泪水，我别过脸去，不愿

Her from seeing Daddy break I whispered sleep

让她看到爸爸的崩溃，我呢喃着，睡吧

My darling sleep my baby please just sleep

亲爱的睡吧，我的宝贝，求你快睡吧

Daddy what is dying is it sleep

爸爸，死亡是什么，是睡着了吗？

Is it just a dream that's very deep

是一场深沉的梦境吗？

Do we close our eyes and somehow keep

我们是否会闭上双眼，然后

On living in the stars Daddy is dying sleep

在星海中延续生命？爸爸，死亡是睡着了吗？

But watching her the guilt began to creep

凝视着她，愧疚如毒藤般爬上

Into my throat the months I didn't keep

我的喉头，想起那些被我辜负的岁月

My promise to slow down the growing heap

曾许诺慢下脚步，如今却堆积成山

Of "I'll read to her tomorrow "the sleep

那些“明天再读给她听”的谎言，这永眠

I traded for the office the secrets I couldn't keep

是我用办公室换来的，那些我守不住的秘密

The way I told her mommy would get well a lie so deep

我曾骗她说妈妈会好起来，那谎言深不见底

It chokes me now the way I couldn't even keep

此刻它扼住我的呼吸，我甚至无法守住

One promise the way I missed the steep

哪怕一个承诺，我错过了她急剧

Drop in her weight the way I didn't peep

暴跌的体重，我从未正眼看过

At the charts the way I worked through her last leap

那些病历，在她童年最后的跨越里，我只顾忙碌

Of childhood the way I'd leap

在童年的末尾，我却忙着在

From one excuse to another the guilt is too deep

在借口间跳转，这愧疚深重得让人窒息

To swim I'd trade my life I'd burn the world I'd reap

无法游出深渊，我愿以命相抵，焚毁世界，去收割

The harvest of my failures just to keep

这一生失败的苦果，只求能留住

Her here one more hour one more breath one more sleep

留她在身边，多一小时，多一次呼吸，多一次安眠

Daddy what is dying is it sleep

爸爸，死亡是什么，是睡着了吗？

Is it just a dream that's very deep

是一场深沉的梦境吗？

Do we close our eyes and somehow keep

我们是否会闭上双眼，然后

On living in the stars Daddy is dying sleep

在星海中延续生命？爸爸，死亡是睡着了吗？

And I understood the truth I had to reap

我终于从她微弱的声音中，领悟了必须承受的真相

From her small voice that dying isn't sleep

死亡并非只是睡眠

Alone it's sleep with someone who will keep

它不是孤独的长眠，而是有人永远

You company who'll hold your hand and weep

陪在你身边，握紧你的手，与你一同哭泣

With you not for you who'll never leap

与你同在而非为你哀悼，那人绝不会

Away who'll count your breaths who'll keep

离你而去，他数着你的呼吸，守候着

The lamp on low who'll read you stories who'll peep

调暗的灯火，为你读着故事，紧盯着

At the monitor who'll kiss your thin wrist who won't sleep

监护仪，亲吻你消瘦的脉搏，他绝不合眼

Through any of it who'll keep

见证这一切，他会

A vigil who'll beg God for one more week one more heap

彻夜守候，向神乞求再多一周，再多堆叠

Of hours who'll be here until you sleep

几个小时，他会一直在这里，直到你真正入睡

Forever and even then my love I'll keep

直到永远，即便在那之后，我的爱也会

You here inside my chest where you will never sleep

将你留在我的胸膛，在那里，你永不凋零

Daddy what is dying is it sleep

爸爸，死亡是什么，是睡着了吗？

Is it just a dream that's very deep

是一场深沉的梦境吗？

Do we close our eyes and somehow keep

我们是否会闭上双眼，然后

On living in the stars Daddy is dying sleep

在星海中延续生命？爸爸，死亡是睡着了吗？